Assalamualaikum, hello and hye!
This is gonna be the first attempt of me writing a blog post after a long time. Been blogging since 2013 when I'm just 12 but then decide to delete the previous blog on 2019 permanently because I feel ashamed of my past which means that older version of me seem like quite retarded lol. I read back some of the entries I made years ago, OMG. It's more like, do you ever scroll back on your Facebook wall like four to five years ago and you read what you posted then you be like,
"OMG, WAS IT ME SAYING THIS?! WHY DID I POST THIS STUFF?!"
I was so henderrous back then huh. But well, it happened, I can't take it back 😅
Well, there's an old saying, the past is history, the future is a mistery and today is a gift, that's why it's called the present. The past is over, we all grow up. So, I set the goals and stages for myself to see any change between me 7 years ago and me 3 years ahead. Therefore, when I look back for the previous self, I can see a progress so that I can be proud of the brand new me. The past is unchangeable but at least, I've learned.
By this time, I'm still young and I'm pretty sure there's many more shameful things to come, I guess. Despite of having a possibility to do such stupid things I'll be ashamed of as I'm a very careless person, yet what I sometimes forget is that, I actually become wiser and better at something. This resulted me in a massive change in a way of thinking and developed a new better personality and behaviour. It takes me years to emerge from that icolated and dry place but hey I've got this game all figured out! I could never regret the circumstances leading up to it.
So, dear self, by taking on more challenging goals, leave the worrying about doing mistakes and love yourself well. Every challenge of life is new and we grow from them, okay?
Toodless.